Superwomen to Some

My life has been a struggle since I was conceived, for my mother while she was pregnant with me was locked in a four wall room with nothing but a bucket for her necessities and a piece of bread and water the whole nine months. I've seen it all from my younger brother get molested by my grandfather to getting the same treatment from my cousins. At the age of nine I witnessed my father try to burn us alive in our home, and also attempt to run my mother over when me and my younger brother was in the car. Finally getting the strength we fled. Unfortunately to poverty in Puerto Rico, are plumbing almost never worked so we had to use the bathroom with a plastic bag over the bucket and then dig a hole outside to keep the flies out. Me my mother,grandmother and brother slept on the floor side by side with flying roaches at bay and almost starving since we had to go a few days without food because their was no money in sight. Thereafter my mother got involved a few years with my step-father who also tried to kill her in front of me by pushing her out of the window, I however was able to call the cops and get him arrested. Much later in life, I had a terrible motor vehicle accident causing me to have traumatic brain injury that continues to effect me to this day along with a broken femur and chronic back pain. I didn't have enough blood, and was close to dying so my mother even though she was opposed to it they gave me a blood transfusion, just to have one of my kidneys shut down..if it wasn't for my mother's eyes and my grandmother's persistent I would've given up the fight of living. Previously loosing all my close friends due to their betrayals. I survived after two surgeries. But never fail while celebrating being able to be a young adult I went to a night club and celebrated being able to walk normal after a year with crutches, unfortunately that night I got raped and lost my last good friend. Not only did I get raped but I was also given an STD. When I confronted my boyfriend of four years of my crisis he broke up with me. I continued to work and force myself not to let my disabilities control me. Two years ago I was diagnosed with a Borderline Personality Disorder due to my mother's ill treatment while I was being formed. There isn't a day that goes by that I close my eyes and see my mother underneath me and my brother with my father in his car. I grew up blaming him for most of my turmoils. A year and a half ago I forgave him and was in the process of having a daughter and father bond that I always desired. On January 2007 I found myself pregnant with twins by a guy who didn't want anything to do with them and physically threatened to kill me if I kept them. A cold and chilly day in January I got a call from my brother stating that my father was in a coma and had a severe accident. For two months my father was in a coma, I lost the twins and became distraught. Additionally, I put aside the years of bitter and was practically living at the hospital just to be by his side. He was able to get out of the coma, but will now be in a vegetate state. Even though he is still unable to talk or move. I am still trying to form that bond. Later in 2007 I was diagnosed with Lupus and was advised by the specialist that it is evolving and getting worse. However I am not letting that stop me. I just recently last semester returned back to school, taking courses at a nearby college even though I only had an GED diploma due to everyday harassment from classmates. I returned back full time and was able to have an average score, this semester I took a fewer classes and am now currently receiving A's an B's in my classes. despite my physical, mental and emotional disability I did not let it stop me from living and attempt to reach higher, I was also able to get another career opportunity at a Law Firm and my drivers license. Through it all the biggest difficulty was letting go off old pain that I endured from my father to form a bond with him. I've been told that I always bounce back harder then my falls and battles to become a better person. I have suffered it all from racism being the only dark skinned child in a 'KKK' town to loosing loved ones and being betrayed by my closest friends.